I have debated for a couple of weeks about writing this post...and finally decided to do it. As I have said before, I use this blog as a family journal to write about the good and the bad. So, I feel like I need to write it down and hopefully it will be theraputic for me and maybe help someone out there that will read it.
I have a hunch that I suffer from Seasonal Affective Dissorder (SAD) In years past, I have felt a slight sadness and lack of motivation during the months of January and February. This year, it has been MUCH worse and I have been searching the internet for answers. I found my answer and hopefully some ways that can help here.
The past two weeks have been miserable - almost unbearable - for me. I have been coming home from work and getting into my pj's (at 3:00 pm...who does that??!?) I have been quiet, reserved, a home body, completely void of motivation, sleepy and sad. For anyone that knows me...that does NOT describe me! I'm not sure why this year has been worse than in years past and I'm hoping that it doesn't continue to get worse as the years go by. If it does - I'm going to be putting a "for sale" sign in my front yard and moving to someplace with LOTS of sunshine year round.
It's not as bad as it could be - I'm not contemplating suicide or anything like that. It's almost like a heavy fog is hanging over me. I feel like my mind is unclear and even the slightest comment can make me teary. It was almost impossible for me to sit through 3 hours of church last Sunday. I have taken more naps in the past two weeks than I have in the past 20 years. I didn't want to go to Bunco on Tuesday, but I did. (and I'm glad - it really helped) I don't want to read my book for book group, I don't want to do laundry, I don't want to make dinner, I don't want to go shopping (and that's HUGE for me!) , I don't want visitors, I don't want to check my email, and the list goes on.
But, I have forced myself to get up, get showered, go to work, try to help other people, make dinner, clean my house, go to the temple, do my visiting teaching, do the laundry, etc...and I will continue to force myself until it's not forced any more. But I am anxiously waiting for the day that the snow will melt away and hopefully take this fog and sadness away with it!. I need sunshine and flowers and fresh air. I need Spring!
6 comments:
I have thought for years that I have this same problem. It is very hard for me to make it through the winters! A year ago I was tested for Vit. D deficiency and my doctor put me on 1000 IU a day and I think it has helped a bit this year. I do like winter; it's not like I hate it or anything, but when reflecting on my happiest memories, they seem to always involve sunshine. That is what initially got me thinking. Then I realized that I was always in a rut in the wintertime. I feel your pain. I hope things get better for you soon. Love you!
Amen. Spring can't come fast enough. It seems like everything is more daunting in the winter. I hope your fog lifts soon (and you'll have to let me know how some of those things work)
Sounds too familiar--you must have caught the "Wilson bug" through marriage. If you ever need to talk. . .call me. Come on down to God's country and enjoy the sun. Sending prayers your way!
So sorry you are going thru this. It's hard to imagine you without a sunshine smile you always seem to have. Sounds like you need a trip to St. George!!!
I feel your pain! Since moving here from California I feel a little bit of that. Winter is just too long. The past few days have definitely made me happier and get excited for the summer days.
Have you every tried those SAD lamps? I know there are all kinds and all prices. I think I even saw some at Walamrt. I was thinking about it myself. I know Jimmy Chunga would always talk about his he kept at work cause he also had seasonal depression. He loved his........
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